Solo Buffalo River Adventure

It was two weeks before my elopement hike in Colorado, and unlike most brides, I had an “anti-bachelorette” adventure up my sleeve…

By myself. Outside.

Because… what else do you expect from an introverted highly-sensitive person??

I packed up my gear and drove five hours from Jefferson City, Missouri to Ponca, Arkansas for a four-day adventure to my Midwestern happy place – The Buffalo National River.

Paddling the Moreau: Hwy 50 to Missouri River

There are a few paddling options near Jefferson City – the Maries, Missouri, Osage, Gasconade, Big Piney, and the Moreau. I’ve paddled a little on the Osage and plan to explore more, but I wanted to check out the Moreau after a tip from a friend last week.

Unlocking My Prison

And even before we were married, with white-knuckled fists, I held on to our relationship through waning romantic effort… unhealthy boundaries at home and work… addiction… neverending counseling appointments… promise after broken promise.. Lie after lie… Trying to control him… begging him to change…

All because I was too terrified to figure out who I was on my own. To face the reality of me.

A Woman Alone in the Woods

When I share with a friend that I enjoy a solo hike in the woods, I’m often met with incredulous looks and questions like “Aren’t you scared?” And when I was married, the questions were more like “And your husband is okay with that?”